Ok, so maybe I take to much notice of anything and everything that has to do with life; and maybe that's a bad thing, or a good and bad thing, I'm not sure... but I've been analyzing peoples attitudes towards me lately, and they've been quite mixed, although none have been downright positive or negative.
I've taken note that if I wish to spend time with anyone, I'm always the one taking initiative; I can't clearly remember the last time someone actually decided they wanted to hang out with me, and asked me if I wished to (aside from a single person who I think may have a crush on me, but I'm not very attracted to them, and even they only asked once, stating, whether it was a cover up or not, that they 'had nothing better to do').
I've also noticed that despite the slight rise in my social standing inside and outside my main group of friends, that even other people I have quick and casual conversations with seem to attempt to shut me up by giving me sparse replies after only about 30 seconds to a minute of conversation; that's not to say my close friends do, but they will from time to time for seemingly no real reason aside from the fact that they don't wish to talk with me.
I also rarely ever receive texts from friends (aside from that one girl, who constantly texts me), which I've taken note of lately.
I know I'm not a bad person or anything... but I'm just wondering why it is that no one really wishes to make much of an effort when it comes to me. Is it just that time of year? Or is it because they think lower of me for some reason? Maybe my oddness is too much to take for alot of people (even if I'm not odd outside of my close circle of friends)?
I don't know... maybe I'm just being abit to over-analyzing; I'm not sure. Either way, it can occasionally hurt slightly, although most of the time it just leaves me asking myself what just happened.
Monday, November 30, 2009
Sunday, November 29, 2009
You've Just Got To
You've gotta run,
Run for your life,
Run for loved ones you know,
Will stick by you no matter the strife.
You've gotta jump,
Jump for your friends,
The ones you know will still be there,
After your heart mends.
You've gotta try,
Try for the world,
For the place you were born,
And all the plans you've unfurled.
You've gotta love,
Love for the one,
Love for the masses,
Until all is said and done.
You've gotta hope,
Hope for better conditions,
Hope for brighter ambitions,
And no need for munitions.
You've gotta see,
See with you eyes and your mind,
See that not all are bad,
But in fact some are really quite kind.
You've gotta swim,
Swim for the shore,
Swim for the lovers and haters,
Who regardless, they open a door.
You've gotta know,
Know all that you can,
Know that there's goodness,
And you've got at least just one fan.
You've gotta stop,
Stop all your wrong moves,
Stop all the violence,
Tell both sides theirs nothing to prove.
You've gotta row,
Row for the falls,
Row for the winners, the losers,
And all those strip malls.
You've gotta like,
With an young, open mind,
With a sense of completion,
So all you know find out your kind.
You've gotta fight,
Fight for all that is right,
Fight all the bad men,
Who keep truth so far from the light.
You've gotta compromise,
Find agreements for all,
To create peace and good people,
With no need for segregating old walls.
Run for your life,
Run for loved ones you know,
Will stick by you no matter the strife.
You've gotta jump,
Jump for your friends,
The ones you know will still be there,
After your heart mends.
You've gotta try,
Try for the world,
For the place you were born,
And all the plans you've unfurled.
You've gotta love,
Love for the one,
Love for the masses,
Until all is said and done.
You've gotta hope,
Hope for better conditions,
Hope for brighter ambitions,
And no need for munitions.
You've gotta see,
See with you eyes and your mind,
See that not all are bad,
But in fact some are really quite kind.
You've gotta swim,
Swim for the shore,
Swim for the lovers and haters,
Who regardless, they open a door.
You've gotta know,
Know all that you can,
Know that there's goodness,
And you've got at least just one fan.
You've gotta stop,
Stop all your wrong moves,
Stop all the violence,
Tell both sides theirs nothing to prove.
You've gotta row,
Row for the falls,
Row for the winners, the losers,
And all those strip malls.
You've gotta like,
With an young, open mind,
With a sense of completion,
So all you know find out your kind.
You've gotta fight,
Fight for all that is right,
Fight all the bad men,
Who keep truth so far from the light.
You've gotta compromise,
Find agreements for all,
To create peace and good people,
With no need for segregating old walls.
It's A Friendly Inferno Finally Forms
Well, I really have to start off by apologizing sincerely for my very long absence; alot has been going on in my life that's led me to have either little or no time for this blog.
To start with, that 'new girlfriend' I mentioned a few weeks ago dumped me about 2 weeks ago now (yet I really don't entirely know why, but I don't think I'm allowed to really disclose alot of details).
Another thing is that I've been looking to my post-grad future quite seriously lately, and have decided I wish to go to UVIC (The University of Victoria), but to do so, I'm required to switch from my current Essentials of Mathematics 11 to Principals of Mathematics 10, which would then lead on to Principals of Mathematics 11 the following semester (both which I will be doing next year; my Grade 12 year).
As to avoid being the oldest person in a Grade 10 math class, I'll be taking the course online, although in the school and during school hours.
I've also been urged to continue with my Math Essentials course, as so if I'm to fail either one or both of the Principals courses, I can still graduate (yet without the requirements I'll need to get into UVIC. If something of that sort occurred, I would still move to Victoria with my friends and attempt to find any loophole that's feasibly possible).
Right now, though, I'm looking forward to winter break which begins after school on December 18th, and runs through until January 4th, which is the longest winter break any school I've ever been to has ever had.
Also, during that time, the band me and Brian Raimondo (of To Contradict Kyran) have been looking to form for quite some time will finally be coming to fruition, and will most likely bear the same name as this very blog, although that'll be put up to a vote when the time comes.
It'll be a very open-ended band, and any genre will be permitted, as I really don't care, as long as I'm not the one drafted to sing for screamo songs.
Well, I should probably get back to studying Spanish, as I've only got exactly 50% in that course the last time I checked, and I'd rather pass it than fail it; so peace out everyone, and have a great week.
To start with, that 'new girlfriend' I mentioned a few weeks ago dumped me about 2 weeks ago now (yet I really don't entirely know why, but I don't think I'm allowed to really disclose alot of details).
Another thing is that I've been looking to my post-grad future quite seriously lately, and have decided I wish to go to UVIC (The University of Victoria), but to do so, I'm required to switch from my current Essentials of Mathematics 11 to Principals of Mathematics 10, which would then lead on to Principals of Mathematics 11 the following semester (both which I will be doing next year; my Grade 12 year).
As to avoid being the oldest person in a Grade 10 math class, I'll be taking the course online, although in the school and during school hours.
I've also been urged to continue with my Math Essentials course, as so if I'm to fail either one or both of the Principals courses, I can still graduate (yet without the requirements I'll need to get into UVIC. If something of that sort occurred, I would still move to Victoria with my friends and attempt to find any loophole that's feasibly possible).
Right now, though, I'm looking forward to winter break which begins after school on December 18th, and runs through until January 4th, which is the longest winter break any school I've ever been to has ever had.
Also, during that time, the band me and Brian Raimondo (of To Contradict Kyran) have been looking to form for quite some time will finally be coming to fruition, and will most likely bear the same name as this very blog, although that'll be put up to a vote when the time comes.
It'll be a very open-ended band, and any genre will be permitted, as I really don't care, as long as I'm not the one drafted to sing for screamo songs.
Well, I should probably get back to studying Spanish, as I've only got exactly 50% in that course the last time I checked, and I'd rather pass it than fail it; so peace out everyone, and have a great week.
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
The Thrones of Epiphany
Sit, you angels,
Upon your thrones,
Theirs nothing at all left here,
Except your skin and bones.
The surging forces topple,
Through the iron laden gates,
And from the depths of Sevastopol,
Lies the eternity of fates.
From the brightened streets of London,
To the windswept streets of chance,
So many wait in silence,
In some deepened sense of trance,
The wild winds are blowing,
From the alleyways of France,
The languages that we don't speak,
Begin their elegant old dance.
The searing pain of poverty,
Flashes through the dark,
As if all that was, was not enough,
To set off one last spark.
Second chance is our last hope,
A lifeline for the lost.
Forgiveness is the only answer,
Slight anger but the cost.
To win a war of mental minds,
Is a single step away.
Virtue is the thing we need,
You'll see I'm right someday.
Upon your thrones,
Theirs nothing at all left here,
Except your skin and bones.
The surging forces topple,
Through the iron laden gates,
And from the depths of Sevastopol,
Lies the eternity of fates.
From the brightened streets of London,
To the windswept streets of chance,
So many wait in silence,
In some deepened sense of trance,
The wild winds are blowing,
From the alleyways of France,
The languages that we don't speak,
Begin their elegant old dance.
The searing pain of poverty,
Flashes through the dark,
As if all that was, was not enough,
To set off one last spark.
Second chance is our last hope,
A lifeline for the lost.
Forgiveness is the only answer,
Slight anger but the cost.
To win a war of mental minds,
Is a single step away.
Virtue is the thing we need,
You'll see I'm right someday.
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Ihrer Wilkommen Amerika Timeline Notes
January 1933- Adolf Hitler and the N.S.D.A.P (Nazi) Party come to power in Germany.
March 1936- German occupation of the Rhineland.
November 1938- Crystal Night in Germany; Jewish businesses viciously attacked by German citizens as well as Nazi stormtroopers.
March 1938- German annexation of Austria.
October 1938- German annexation of Sudetenland.
March 1939- Czechoslovakia given an ultimatum; ultimatum refused; Czechoslovakia invaded and occupied by German forces.
Slovakian puppet state set up by the Nazis in the East.
Summer 1939- Danzig and 'Polish Corridor' threatened by German forces.
August 1939- Molotov-Ribbentrop Pact signed; U.S.S.R. and Germany plan to invade and partition Poland in half.
September 1939- Poland invaded by Germany from the west, and Soviets from the east.
Britain and British Commonwealth, as well as France, declare war on Germany.
September 1939 to April 1940- Phoney War; Germany ceases westward advance due to unfavorable winter conditions. Allies prepare for war.
April 1940- German forces invade Denmark and Norway. The Phoney War ends.
May 1940- Germany invades neutral Holland and Belgium; pushes into France.
June 1940- France surrenders to German forces; Vichy French puppet state established in the south, lead by Henry Petain.
July 1940- Battle of Britain begins with German bombing of British military targets.
August 1940- German bombing of British military targets does not cease; yet with dwindling RAF numbers, Germany is able to spare enough planes for bi-weekly bombings of London.
RAF defeated by the end of the month; Germany owns the skies.
September 1940- Operation Sea Lion begins; German forces launch across the Channel from Brittany, Le Havre, Antwerp, and Amsterdam, landing in the cities and towns of Plymouth, Southampton, Ipswich, and Norwich, as well as paratrooper attacks launched from Paris, Vichy, Brest, Amiens, and Rotterdam, and landing in Oxford, Bristol, Cardiff, and Leicester, with a large concentration in London.
Churchill and many members of his cabinet flee to Glasgow.
*Initial victory over German forces in first wave during Battle of London.
Germans pushed back in Cardiff; yet eventual victory followed in every other assault, bringing all of southern Britain (from the northern outskirts of London) under Nazi control.
October 1940- German forces are reinforced; begin blitz pushes to the south, reaching Birmingham within 3 weeks.
German forces push until reaching Scottish border; advance ceases temporarily.
German forces begin major spearhead assault towards Glasgow; they encounter heavy defensive resistance.
*OPERATION: VICTORY BOND*
British commandos escort Prime Minister Winston Churchill to the western Scottish shore, where he is to take a steamship to Northern Ireland where he'll be flown to Canada as to form the British Government in Exile; they meet slight resistance from flanking German forces.
Churchill and his cabinet are forced to disguise themselves. The Germans catch wind of the plan.
Churchill and his associates successfully reach the steamship, and begin the short journey to Northern Ireland under heavy naval escort; yet the Luftwaffe finds them and bombing commences.
Most of the naval escort is decimated, and Churchill's steamship itself is sunk, killing several members of his cabinet; Churchill himself and 6 members of his cabinet (all thought to be dead), are rescued by passing Irish fisherman the following morning from their leaking lifeboat.
They are brought to a port near Dublin, where a British military escort arrives on October 31st to escort Churchill to Northern Ireland.
November 1940- German forces seize control of Glasgow; the remainder of the British Parliament surrender unconditionally on behalf of the entire nation.
Nazi occupational districts are established and German forces launch amphibious assault on Northern Ireland, meeting little resistance from British forces which have refused to surrender.
Churchill successfully makes it to Toronto, Ontario, Canada via plane. He is driven to Ottawa to meet with Canadian Prime Minister William Lyon MacKenzie King.
March 1936- German occupation of the Rhineland.
November 1938- Crystal Night in Germany; Jewish businesses viciously attacked by German citizens as well as Nazi stormtroopers.
March 1938- German annexation of Austria.
October 1938- German annexation of Sudetenland.
March 1939- Czechoslovakia given an ultimatum; ultimatum refused; Czechoslovakia invaded and occupied by German forces.
Slovakian puppet state set up by the Nazis in the East.
Summer 1939- Danzig and 'Polish Corridor' threatened by German forces.
August 1939- Molotov-Ribbentrop Pact signed; U.S.S.R. and Germany plan to invade and partition Poland in half.
September 1939- Poland invaded by Germany from the west, and Soviets from the east.
Britain and British Commonwealth, as well as France, declare war on Germany.
September 1939 to April 1940- Phoney War; Germany ceases westward advance due to unfavorable winter conditions. Allies prepare for war.
April 1940- German forces invade Denmark and Norway. The Phoney War ends.
May 1940- Germany invades neutral Holland and Belgium; pushes into France.
June 1940- France surrenders to German forces; Vichy French puppet state established in the south, lead by Henry Petain.
July 1940- Battle of Britain begins with German bombing of British military targets.
August 1940- German bombing of British military targets does not cease; yet with dwindling RAF numbers, Germany is able to spare enough planes for bi-weekly bombings of London.
RAF defeated by the end of the month; Germany owns the skies.
September 1940- Operation Sea Lion begins; German forces launch across the Channel from Brittany, Le Havre, Antwerp, and Amsterdam, landing in the cities and towns of Plymouth, Southampton, Ipswich, and Norwich, as well as paratrooper attacks launched from Paris, Vichy, Brest, Amiens, and Rotterdam, and landing in Oxford, Bristol, Cardiff, and Leicester, with a large concentration in London.
Churchill and many members of his cabinet flee to Glasgow.
*Initial victory over German forces in first wave during Battle of London.
Germans pushed back in Cardiff; yet eventual victory followed in every other assault, bringing all of southern Britain (from the northern outskirts of London) under Nazi control.
October 1940- German forces are reinforced; begin blitz pushes to the south, reaching Birmingham within 3 weeks.
German forces push until reaching Scottish border; advance ceases temporarily.
German forces begin major spearhead assault towards Glasgow; they encounter heavy defensive resistance.
*OPERATION: VICTORY BOND*
British commandos escort Prime Minister Winston Churchill to the western Scottish shore, where he is to take a steamship to Northern Ireland where he'll be flown to Canada as to form the British Government in Exile; they meet slight resistance from flanking German forces.
Churchill and his cabinet are forced to disguise themselves. The Germans catch wind of the plan.
Churchill and his associates successfully reach the steamship, and begin the short journey to Northern Ireland under heavy naval escort; yet the Luftwaffe finds them and bombing commences.
Most of the naval escort is decimated, and Churchill's steamship itself is sunk, killing several members of his cabinet; Churchill himself and 6 members of his cabinet (all thought to be dead), are rescued by passing Irish fisherman the following morning from their leaking lifeboat.
They are brought to a port near Dublin, where a British military escort arrives on October 31st to escort Churchill to Northern Ireland.
November 1940- German forces seize control of Glasgow; the remainder of the British Parliament surrender unconditionally on behalf of the entire nation.
Nazi occupational districts are established and German forces launch amphibious assault on Northern Ireland, meeting little resistance from British forces which have refused to surrender.
Churchill successfully makes it to Toronto, Ontario, Canada via plane. He is driven to Ottawa to meet with Canadian Prime Minister William Lyon MacKenzie King.
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Here's To You.
So here's to all you fighters,
Living beat by beat.
Carrying but your lighters,
You travel in bare feet.
And here's to all you soldiers,
When day means life or death,
No office and no folders,
You live to aim and hold your breath.
Here's to all you mellow men,
For you, the world spins slow,
To sit or do or touch again,
Is simply part of the flow.
And here's to the depressed,
Who fight alone at home,
Missing all their social friends,
They won't pick up the phone.
And this ones to the arrogant,
The egos and inferior,
Who march throughout this strange old world,
Believing themselves superior.
But here's to all the fair men,
Who do as they see fit,
Yet never simply drop the fact,
That this world needs to be lit.
Living beat by beat.
Carrying but your lighters,
You travel in bare feet.
And here's to all you soldiers,
When day means life or death,
No office and no folders,
You live to aim and hold your breath.
Here's to all you mellow men,
For you, the world spins slow,
To sit or do or touch again,
Is simply part of the flow.
And here's to the depressed,
Who fight alone at home,
Missing all their social friends,
They won't pick up the phone.
And this ones to the arrogant,
The egos and inferior,
Who march throughout this strange old world,
Believing themselves superior.
But here's to all the fair men,
Who do as they see fit,
Yet never simply drop the fact,
That this world needs to be lit.
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
If Sorry Wasn't Enough.
This isn't another stupid rhyme,
Far from me,
I know it's time,
The dizzy spins,
I cannot cease,
I did much wrong,
Piece by piece,
I took you down,
The world,
Your frown,
It led me on,
To thoughts unknown,
Things unsaid,
And chances blown.
I miss you.
Far from me,
I know it's time,
The dizzy spins,
I cannot cease,
I did much wrong,
Piece by piece,
I took you down,
The world,
Your frown,
It led me on,
To thoughts unknown,
Things unsaid,
And chances blown.
I miss you.
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
A sore head lead to this quick update.
Well, it seems as if I've got a bit of free time at school here due to the fact that my entire Social Studies class has decided to go outside and work on the field for reasons that I, myself, am not fully aware of. The reason I write to you now is because I've got a cold and don't wish to go outside, even if the temperature is only moderately chilly, it causes my entire body to squirm and feel strange and uncomfortable.
Anyways, I would like to apologize for my long absence (aside from posting a couple of my 'originally-Facebook-oriented' poems.) I've been quite busy with school and life for the past couple of weeks, and have barely been able to find the time to actually do anything related to the internet aside from occasionally checking my email.
As I often do, I promise that another full-fledged article is on its way in the not-to-distant future (by which I mean probably mid-November, if not possibly this weekend).
Anyways, I won't give much detail, but I've got a new girlfriend; as usual, I'm not going to reveal her name as I respect personal privacy as well as any international law related to internet privacy (I can always ask tomorrow in my Law class if any such legislation exists).
Another thing I would just like to add: I am currently getting 91% in my Social Studies 11 course, and hope to make it close to 98% if possible before the end of the year as I'm a 20th century history buff and would like to have something to prove it aside from sparse questions asked by friends and family.
Well that's all I've got for today... remember to keep on the lookout for my next article (what it'll be about, I have yet to decide), but I hope everyone who finds it in themselves to read this post has a great day, a great week, a great month, and a great year (and etc.)
Peace out, people of the planet.
Anyways, I would like to apologize for my long absence (aside from posting a couple of my 'originally-Facebook-oriented' poems.) I've been quite busy with school and life for the past couple of weeks, and have barely been able to find the time to actually do anything related to the internet aside from occasionally checking my email.
As I often do, I promise that another full-fledged article is on its way in the not-to-distant future (by which I mean probably mid-November, if not possibly this weekend).
Anyways, I won't give much detail, but I've got a new girlfriend; as usual, I'm not going to reveal her name as I respect personal privacy as well as any international law related to internet privacy (I can always ask tomorrow in my Law class if any such legislation exists).
Another thing I would just like to add: I am currently getting 91% in my Social Studies 11 course, and hope to make it close to 98% if possible before the end of the year as I'm a 20th century history buff and would like to have something to prove it aside from sparse questions asked by friends and family.
Well that's all I've got for today... remember to keep on the lookout for my next article (what it'll be about, I have yet to decide), but I hope everyone who finds it in themselves to read this post has a great day, a great week, a great month, and a great year (and etc.)
Peace out, people of the planet.
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