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Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Something Beautiful and the Third Wheel

Well, it's been quite awhile since I last posted on my blog. Maybe not quite as long as I think due to the fact that alot has happened in the past few days (which, as is obvious, I'll share with you in a moment).
I haven't made any real progress on any of my songwriting projects, for any distant person who may actually care. I'm really starting to wonder how significant I am to everyone else in my life, due to the fact that I was sort of dumped/ rejected by a girl two years younger then me earlier today. I must really be unworth it and unattractive if she she made up her mind that fast.
Whether anyone reads this or not, I'll share with you what exactly happened and how I feel about it. It does help to get it out, regardless.

Anyways, I met this girl (who I won't state the name of for privacy reasons) while camping on the gulf island of Texada just over 3 or so weeks ago. I thought she was quite pretty, but she was my brothers age (and as such I've put up a mental barrier when it comes to dating people that age) so I didn't actually take my attraction to her very seriously, and I shook it off, it seemed, almost as quick as it had come.
Then, at a friends birthday party on Texada, I realized that was more then just some blank attraction to her looks. Her looks were part of it, but it was also about how much she was like me (well, like me on occasion) in alot of ways, and this sort of enigmatic, mysterious aura she gave off. I suddenly found myself really worrying about how I looked around her.
Later that same night, I realized I really did like her, and it wasn't just one of those 'I havn't had a girlfriend in a long time, so I need to look good for these ladies' sort of things I'll admit I have felt in the past.
We were sitting out on her trampoline, a group of 6 or 7 of us. We decided to play truth or dare (God I hope my mom doesn't read this).
When we played truth or dare, we had some really strange dares (don't worry, they weren't TO dirty) which I'd rather not share with the entire world. At some point during the night, I was dared to kiss the girl I liked. Of course, I did.
She gave me this strange sort of 'I want this, but I'm a bit confused as to whether I'm telling myself the truth' looks. Regardless, I kissed her. And I enjoyed it.

We ended up pulling an all-nighter that same night, playing truth or dare well into the morning until the sun began to peak over the distant island mountains. At that point, two members of our entourage decided they wanted to get some sleep, and as such, they slept on the trampoline while the remaining 4 of us decided to walk around the utterly deserted and silent Texada community of Gillies Bay, listening to music and chatting about different things, as well as stirring up a bit of trouble (which is natural for people our age... and I don't mean that sexually).
I really thought this girl I liked was very pretty, and I liked her 'crazy girl' style.

The following day (well, ok, later on that same day) we took a ferry back to my hometown of Powell River due to the fact that the yearly Seafair was taking place, which included amusement park rides, cotton candy, and of course a game where you attempt to win your girlfriend a teddy bear.
It was during out time there that I finally decided to acknowledge the fact that I liked this girl with two of my closest friends (one of them being Brian Raimondo from To Contradict Kyran), and I told them both that due to the mental block I'd put up, I now had a problem because I really did care for this girl who was still my brothers age.

One of those closest friends, the one I won't mention the name of due to privacy reasons, was taking the ferry back to Texada with the girl I liked because both of them lived there.
While on the ferry, he kept saying things to her like 'oh, so you and Kyran, eh?'
He later told me that he had misjudged what I had said, and had perceived it as meaning that I really had something with her as it was, despite the fact that I had only known her for just over 3 weeks. I wasn't angry, I had no reason to be.

I think one thing that lead to the failure of this relationship before it started is the fact that everything appeared to be rushed, even though I had taken extra care not to rush into anything this time.
To speed things up abit, she really did seem to like me a couple of days later (after she had revealed that she knew I liked her, and that she liked me), and we even shared some longing glances and held hands. A day later, capiche. It's over. She decides she only likes me as a friend.
There's another instance that probably caused her to stop liking me, but that instance on its own is worth a spin-off article on its own. I'll bring that to everyone later.

Have a great summer. Hopefully, you have better luck then me.

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Honduran Irregularities

Last night (well, ok, technically this morning between 3 and 4 AM) I did some more research into the whole Honduran coup thing, and I think I've gathered enough information to actually draw my own (tentative) opinion on the whole subject; and in a nutshell, I'm almost entirely against the coup.

To start with: there's no evidence that suggests that President Zelaya (the ousted leader of Honduras) had anything to do with any illegal wrongdoings, and there's certainly no evidence that he was seeking to extend his term in office (which, under the Honduran constitution, causes whichever current President who seeks to do so to be taken out of office... immediately).
Another strange fact that was observed is the fact that, since the coup, the prominent leader of the infamous Honduran 'Death Squads' from the 1980's (who's name has escaped me at this time) has been permitted to reintegrate into public life, which includes speaking on Honduran talk shows and boasting about how much good the coup has done for the nation.

One positive outcome I've observed from the coup is that, despite the irregularities and probable misconceptions, the people of Honduras did unite to stand up and defend there democracy (just as people in Iran are doing at this moment as well).

Other notable occurrences since the coup include both human rights violations (the murders of 3 peaceful Honduran protesters) as well as the censorship of news sources and the suppression of journalists resistant to the censorship by beating them (to death, in a few reported cases) as well as imprisoning them. If that isn't a true breach of the constitution, I certainly don't see why a President seeking to extend his term in office is, in comparison of course.

Another (at least perceived) outcome of the coup is the increased reliability on the United States, and who knows? Maybe elements within the American government had something to do with this coup. It's happened plenty of times before (so much, in fact, I'm beginning to wonder why the CIA's existence is still permitted).

Hopefully, Roberto Micheletti (the President of the current provisional government) is counter-couped from his illegal, unjustified position soon, whether it be by his own people, or by Zelaya, and whether it's by violent, or peaceful means.

Thursday, July 16, 2009

Co-ordination is Key, and the Stars Mean Something to Everyone

Well, I thought I'd post a quick update on how I'm doing and what I've been up to lately.
Today, I began learning the song "See You Soon" by Coldplay on my acoustic guitar, and have actually gotten so far as to think I may possibly have it mastered within a week. The next thing to tackle will be singing while strumming (without mistake).

I may (this isn't for sure) have a video up on YouTube of me covering "See You Soon" by the end of the month. Other songs I wish to learn on the guitar are as follows:

"Yellow" by Coldplay (was attempting to learn it yesterday, but only ended up custom tuning the guitar and finding out there are ways of playing it that don't require any strange tuning),

"Viva la Vida" by Coldplay (have already started learning it),

"Violet Hill" by Coldplay (tried to learn it, but failed miserably),

"Ticket to Ride" by the Beatles (was the first song I attempted to learn, but I only ended up getting as far as learning the intro),

"Hey There Delilah" by the Plain White T's (a friend tried to teach me, but it was 3 in the morning and I didn't much feel up to it),

"God Put A Smile Upon Your Face" by Coldplay,

and "Star Wars Main Theme" by John Williams (this one is certainly not a priority).

Something else I've been up to is writing a song, as well as planning another; the song I'm currently writing is codenamed "Shiny," but it won't retain this name following completion. I'm thinking of calling it either "Opulence," "Apocalyptic Creed," "Blue to the Bone," or "Opulent Blue." Yes, I'm aware of the fact that these names are the greatest I've ever come up with.
The other I plan to write already has a definite name and chorus, and will include the same custom tuning as the Coldplay song "Yellow." The song will be called "The Stars Mean Something to Everyone," but I don't plan to tackle that project until I've almost mastered strumming and singing at the same time.

As always, I wish everyone a great summer, and don't worry, another full-fledged article will make its way to my blog ASAP!
Peace out, everyone.

Friday, July 10, 2009

My Summer So Far

Well, I decided I'd share what I've been up to for the past 3 or so weeks with the world due to lack of anything better to do.
Anyways, just prior to my final exams, I picked up a Roadsense for Drivers handbook at my local ICBC insurance branch, and actually got quite far into it on the first day; page 34.
Since then, I haven't read any further into it, and still haven't taken the knowledge test to earn my L (Learners) license. I intend to do so before the end of the month, so I'm not waiting to get my N for longer then I need to next year.

After final exams, I just spent a week hanging out with friends and relaxing at home until I went back in to pick up my report card. The tension was killing me as I slowly turned the card over to read my final marks; thankfully, I passed everything with higher then a C.
Since then, I've either been spending time with friends or family, or otherwise been relaxing at home playing video games, writing blog posts, or practicing guitar.
I've also started writing a song; its name for the time being is Shiny, but I'm 100% sure that won't be the final title. That'd be kind've lame if it was.
So far, all I've got is the chorus for the song, and I'm still screwing it up when practicing; mostly due to the whole concept of 'singing while strumming.'

July 1st was Canada Day, and I had a great time. I slept over at my best friends place, and we played video games until 12:15 AM in the morning, when he decided he was to tired to stay up any longer due to the fact that he had been working all day with his dad. I understood, but that didn't stop me from bugging him about it.
Both of us got up ridiculously early for a summer day; 7:30 AM.
We then played video games for a couple of hours, and then had some breakfast.
After that, his girlfriend texted him, and we met up with her near the mall (and just as a sidenote: his girlfriend is also a best friend of mine).

We then met up with another couple of friends (both girls; again, just a friendly sidenote) and one of them decided that we should go see her moms baseball game in another part of town known as Wildwood prior to the Canada Day celebrations at Willington Beach at around 7:30 PM.
Just as we were sorting out money to pay for the bus ride for each of us at a friends house, that friends mom came and told us there was a fire just down the street.
Curious, each of us walked down there; it was some sort of industrial fire at a small construction lot. To this day, I still have no knowledge as to how it occurred.
After watching it for about 5 minutes, the smell of burning plastic made it hard for me to breath, so we all walked back and continued to sort out the money for each of us.
After about an hour, we had all the money sorted out, as well as the bus times, so we walked down to the bus stop at the mall and waited only about 2 minutes before getting on the right bus.

About 20 minutes later, we were in Wildwood, and due to the fact that the game wasn't for another 45 minutes, we decided to spend some time in the playground of my old school, James Thompson Elementary.
After half-an-hour of playing around, resurrecting memories I never thought I'd remember again (such as memories of me and my old best friend being loners near the large blue tire that wasn't very far from the exit gate), we walked to the area where the baseball game was taking place; Sunset Park, which is only about a 5 minute walk from James Thompson.

After watching the game for about an hour, me and a few friends walked another friends younger sister over to the swings on the opposite side of the park. After ranting pointlessly while swinging on the swings, I decided to go down to the lower field and just relax while cloud watching (sadly, it was a clear day, so minus the clouds).

After about another hour, the baseball game came to an end and we hitched a ride to Willington Beach with a friends dad, but not without stopping to attempt to extort my mom of some of the money she owed me. After about 5 minutes, I finally got 10 of the 20 dollars she owed me due to chores, and we rode to Willington Beach.

We walked around the busy beach aimlessly, occasionally purchasing a snack or two while we waited for the Canada Day fireworks which were scheduled to be held at around 11 PM.
Finally, a couple of hours later, we sat down on the slightly damp yet comfortable grass to watch the fireworks with legions of different people representing different parts of my small hometown of Powell River (with an estimated population of about 19,000 or so).
The fireworks were incredible; after about 3 of the spectacular explosions, I decided to be a bit conspicuous and stood up, only to fall to my knees with the next incredible array of lights to yell "I give you light!"
"I give you fire!"
"I give you Jesus!"

No one except my friends really noticed (thankfully) due to the already loud sound of a cheering crowd.

Following the fireworks, everyone dispersed and went home. I and another friend of mine walked my best friend (who you'll know as Brian Raimondo from To Contradict Kyran) back to his place.
I grabbed my guitar from his place, drank a quick glass of water, slung my pretty instrument on my back, and walked back home along the highway.
A quarter into my short journey home, I saw a generally large group of people near the back of a car along the highway. I was a bit nervous, but continued to walk towards them.
Finally, I got close enough and saw one of them was an acquaintance of mine due to the fact that he's the older brother of an old friend of mine. He knew who I was and told his friends "No, look, it's Kyran." A friend of his observed the guitar on my back and asked "Oooh, are you gonna play a song for us?"
Comically, I responded, "Have you got 20 bucks?"
He just chuckled and said, "Aww, no."
The brother of that old friend of mine nodded to me and said "You have a good Canada Day, Kyran."
Smiling, I replied, "Yeah, you to."

After another while of walking, I made it home safely. I then sat down at my moms laptop and began playing some video games until 2 AM, when I finally went up to bed.

I had a pretty slow week or so following, until my mom and her boyfriend decided they wanted to go camping on the gulf island of Texada, which I've mentioned in a couple of previous posts (see Islas de San Felix (Texada Island) and New Features).
They said I could invite a friend, so I invited Brian (who's girlfriend lives on Texada).
That weekend, Texada's own local holiday, Sandcastle Weekend, was taking place, so we were lucky to get a spot at any camping sight, let alone the most popular of camping areas, Shelter Point Provincial Park.
While there, we spent time with Brian's girlfriend, as well as her friends on the island, and I met a group of cool new people who, prior to that weekend, were 'friends of a friend.'
On the Saturday night prior to going back to Powell River, we spent alot of the night with those new friends of ours, and Brian's girlfriend left for Powell River so she could catch the ferry the next day to Comox on Vancouver Island, as so they could drive down to the city of Victoria, so she (and a friend of hers, who's also a friend of mine) could get on a ferry to Washington State in the U.S. so she could spend 15 days down there with her mom.
She's still there to this day, and will be coming back in just over a week or so.

On the Sunday following, we went and checked out the Sandcastle Weekend celebrations in one of the small Texada Island communities, known as Gillies Bay. We checked out some pretty neat sandcastle sculptures, and then drove down to a (so called restricted) swimming area near the ferry to Powell River; an old abandoned quarry. Quite a beautiful area, and the water was incredible both in looks and feel.

We then took the next ferry home, dropped Brian off at his place, and headed back to the house.
Over the week, one of the new friends of mine has threatened to come over to Powell River and hang out, and finally, yesterday, he was able to, and he invited me to go to a movie, but I was going to my dads house for the weekend so I thought it better that I didn't go due to the fact that I didn't see my dad very often.
That brings us to today; I woke up at around 1 PM after staying up late playing video games on my brothers X-Box 360.
I showered, changed, ate some breakfast, and then decided to add some tags to previous blog posts as to increase there exposure. Then I decided to write this blog post.

Hope you enjoyed it, and I'll keep everyone updated on how the rest of my summer goes.
Peace out, and have a great summer to everyone that reads this post. (:

Thursday, July 9, 2009

On Iran, North Korea, China, Iraq, and Honduras

I've been observing the actions of both Iran and North Korea for a couple of years now; but only just recently has North Korea really grabbed me by the scruff of the neck and violently thrown me into an uncomfortable chair to watch their deadly deeds unfold.

Iran, in my personal opinion, has always been a highly-developed nation with youth much like that of the Western world, and these protests over the recent election results has only further strengthened my opinion of them in their favor. It's their self-centered government that's been the problem everyone has been keeping a close watch on; if they aren't careful, someones going to stage a coup. If, for some reason, that fails, or never comes to bear in the first place, they may be facing possible United Nations and/or NATO involvement in their domestic affairs.

If this were the 1930's or '40's, I'm sure a genocide of Iranian youth would have occurred by now.
Probably the only thing holding the Iranian government and military back from doing so is the very existence of the United Nations, and the indisputable threat of military invasion if a genocide of that nature was to take place.
In my opinion, if the election results aren't either recounted, or a new election re-staged in its entirety, I urge the people of Iran to resist with every ounce of self-respect in their body, whether it be verbal resistance or physical; or even both.

North Korea has really taken the entire world by storm with all these nuclear tests; the entire population of that cooped-up country has been completely brainwashed into following their leader to the very death, despite all the pain and suffering he puts them through day by day.
I can't even picture a democratic, stable North Korea. At best, I see a reunified Korea with South Korea introducing the dominant ideology. If that were to happen, something that closely resembles the process of 'Denazification' (which was the process of repatriating the citizens of Germany whilst wiping their brains clean of the Nazi ideology following the Second World War) would need to be performed at quite a large extent.
Who knows, though? Maybe the citizens of North Korea are more ideologically resistant to their totalitarian government than we think.

The current civil unrest in China is something I haven't exactly been following to a very large extent, so forgive me if my information isn't as correct as it could be. To the best of my knowledge, theirs some sort of ethnic conflict occurring within China's borders, and I don't believe it's actually any resistance to the countries totalitarian communist regime.
Still, this conflict may well have the potential to spark another Chinese civil war, who knows?
It'd be nice to see some large-scale resistance to the Chinese communist regime, but the Chinese people seem pretty neutral on that subject.

Violence is still more then a stereotypical quality for Iraq, especially now with the withdrawal of the majority of American forces. I believe only about 100,000 American soldiers will remain stationed there by 2011 in a futile attempt to keep the peace.
I don't think we've heard the last of Iraq, though. I have a feeling a large civil war is on its way that may establish many other countries in place of Iraq (obviously based on ethnic and religious background).

Elsewhere, Honduran President Manuel Zelaya was ousted from power, kidnapped, and flown to Costa Rica where he was expected to remain in exile not to long ago; since then, he's returned and actually spoken to the President of the new provisional government, Roberto Micheletti, face to face. He has demanded that power be shifted back to him.
To the best of my knowledge, the justification for the coup was that Manuel was about to convene parliament and attempt to alter the Honduran Constitution.

I really don't know enough about that issue to draw my own definitive conclusion.

Anyways, that's my outlook on the world of July 2009, and I hope you found it interesting and informative.
Have a great summer!

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

New Features

Well, I apologize to everyone for not writing a new post in the past few days. I've been away, camping on the gulf island of Texada a ferry-ride away from where I am right now. I may later today, or possibly tomorrow, but that's not for sure.
I promise you though; a new post is coming before the end of this week.

Technically, this is a new post, but I wouldn't call it so due to the fact that I'm not actually writing about anything that really matters. All I'm doing is informing you of the post that's soon to come.
I plan for it to be a full-fledged article, but I'm not completely clear on what it'll be about.

Anyways, I'd also like to mention a new feature I'm adding to my blog; weekly song picks.
Yes, this idea was inspired by the concept introduced by my friend Brian Raimondo on his blog To Contradict Kyran. Check out his latest post, it's quite funny: http://brianthehipster.blogspot.com.

This weeks song pick is quite an incredible song written by the indy rock/ alternative country band Lucero.
The song is titled "The War" and it's about a serviceman during the Second World War, and is quite inspiring as well as informative.
Also, I'm thinking about giving my blog a huge face lift and giving it a whole new template. Give me your thoughts on this idea, and tell me if you know of a good custom template website that supports Blogger blogs.

Peace out, and enjoy!

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The world is meaningless,

there is no God or gods, there are no morals, the universe is not moving inexorably towards any higher purpose.
All meaning is man-made, so make your own, and make it well.
Do not treat life as a way to pass the time until you die.
Do not try to "find yourself", you must make yourself.
Choose what you want to find meaningful and live, create, love, hate, cry, destroy, fight and die for it.
Do not let your life and your values and your actions slip easily into any mold, other that that which you create for yourself, and say with conviction, "This is who I make myself".
Do not give in to hope.
Remember that nothing you do has any significance beyond that with which you imbue it.
Whatever you do, do it for its own sake.
When the universe looks on with indifference, laugh, and shout back, "Fuck You!".
Rembember that to fight meaninglessness is futile, but fight anyway, in spite of and because of its futility.
The world may be empty of meaning, but it is a blank canvas on which to paint meanings of your own.
Live deliberately. You are free.